Well shit, now i have to go all the way back up to reblog it…
Actually, kind of made me feel better about myself
oh my god i had to do that too^^
repostrepostrepost. I love you all so much <3
new tumblr layout = doesn’t have to scroll back up to reblog
No matter what, whenever I get past you, I get dragged back in. Sadly, it’s willingly because I love you. I love you dearly but sadly, my dear, oh ever so sadly, I can’t do this anymore. I just can’t take this pain. The pain of knowing I’m second best. This pain overwhelms and it hurts to end it now. It hurts to say goodbye but what will hurt more is letting myself drag my heart through concealed barbs, although soothed by love and kind words and truthfulness I can feel…I need more. I need something more. I need you…but I can’t have you and it’s killing me. So for now…goodbye love…I’ll never fully let go but to go through this again is no easier than the first time and the warm tears caress my cheeks as if they never left. Because they never have. I may stop them from falling but they still exist within me. I can still feel this pain. But this pain is far greater than any I have ever known before and it almost kills me more to let it go.
So it’ll never fully be gone but for now, I need a decision because this back and forth is killing me. I love you so. I can’t even say how much I love you so.
I love you, I love you, I love you…